My Name is Hannah I am 23 years old, and Gay...I am a very quiet person, i just am thats who i am and i dont intend to change who i am to make someone happy.... i am who i am, like it or leave it... i love to write poetry.... I forgive, but i wont forget... Im an easy person to get along with... If you take the time & patience to get to know me you'll find that i am very caring and unique... You wont find anyone else like me, once you get to really know who I AM. I Love helping people in ANYWAY that i can... I have a extremely HUGE heart... Ive been told by many that i am a great listener a great friend to have and that i am very understanding & caring and unique.... I Love my friends, without them id fall forever.... and never land.....I LOVE TATTOOS AND PIERCINGS, the more the better.....It is VERY attractive as well on girls :) i am a very hopeless romantic, i love cuddling, and holding my partner all the time, i am a Pisces so im emotional and sensitive, im really introverted. I keep to myself a lot, but if you get to know me, know me, that does change... simply in a relationship all i ask for is TRUST...thats its.. i want to be able to trust you.. i want Someone that will love me for me No questions asked Someone that'll treat me the way i should be treated.... TRUST, LOVE, and RESPECT.... But if you want to know more, im sure i would tell you and im sure i would like to know more about you too . Im tired of being single... i hate being alone, nothings worse. Im a quiet, introverted type of person. Im a pisces [and if you read about my sign, its me to a T]. Ive been through alot so far in my life, but if it wasnt for all the hard times, i wouldnt be as strong and level headed as i am today. Life is hard, and its easy, thats life and you have to accept that. I still live with my dad, i dont choose to but i have to, i dont have the money right now to afford my own place. Im very respectful and loyal. I love to listen to people and actually listen and give advice, if needed. I love ALL types of music, as long as the lyrics and the music makes me enjoy it then i will listen to it. I smoke cigarettes [currently trying to quit], and drink recreationally. I like to go out sometimes to clubs and bars [not every single weekend, but like twice a month i am not a partier anymore really] Im a shy person at first, but once you get to know me, i dont shut up. i have a decent sarcastic sense of humor. i would do ANYTHING for my friends and family. I want to have kids one day, but not until im like 26 or 27. As of right now my only child is my kitty, my MeMe, i love her like a daughter :) i have an obnoxious laugh, lol. I love to write and cook, they are my main favorite hobbies. I just want to meet someone that will love me for me not for my looks, because looks can fade away within a matter of seconds. ANYONE can lose weight/gain weight... get in a car accident and become paralyzed, so i dont base my relationships on looks, i base it on their heart and mind. [if only everyone was like that, right?] i dont ask for much in a relationship, all i ask for is your respect and your trust, whcih is the easiest thing in the world to do. I cannot stand people that are disrespectful in ANYWAY, its very un-attractive... and rude. i hate bad manners and liars. i have anxiety, and sometimes it can cripple me, but for the most part ive learned to control it, most of the times anyways.... i am a extremely patient woman, its sick how patient i can be lol... .... i just wanna be with someone that is like me... they say opposites attract, well i do not believe that at all., how could opposites attract, serioulsy. they would just fight all the time, and wouldnt agree on ANYTHING, ever... I dont know, i dont label myself, im just Hannah AKA Beezy... I DONT TAKE LIFE SERIOUS AT ALL, BECAUSE WE ONLY GOT ONE LIFE, MINE AS WELL MAKE THE MOST OF IT
55 Reasons why I Hate having Socaial Anxiety
1. I hate not being able to talk to my family
2. I hate not being able to hold a decent conversation with anyone.
3. I hate being scared to drive my friend home from a get together because I don’t know what to talk about in the car.
4. I hate that I never have a witty reply to the thousands of annoying comments I get a day.
5. I hate having awkward body movements
6. I hate sounding weird when I talk
7. I hate the dead silence after I kill a conversation
8. I hate my personality(Introvert)(ISTP)
9. I hate that I’m the only one that sucks in my family
10. I hate that I’m to scared to call my friends
11. I hate that all my conversations on the phone are awkward and I never know what to say
12. I hate that my siblings can talk to relatives on the phone and I can’t
13. I hate when people call me weird just because I’m quite
14. I hate that I never know what to say to anyone
15. I hate that I haven’t enjoyed one moment of my life since I was 5 years old.
16. I hate that I will never be normal
17. I hate that my whole life is forced
18. I hate that having fun with friends is work for me
19. I hate when friends constantly make sarcastic jokes about me
20. I hate going to work because I don’t know how to joke around with the other girls
21. I hate not being able to dance, catch the latest funny phrases, and use family guy quotes.
22. I hate not being able to audibly comprehend what people are saying, especially if there is even the smallest amount of background noise
23. I hate when one of my friends makes me feel so low when that happens
24. I hate not being able to talk to girls
25. I hate being boring
26. I hate being scared to say hi to my friend’s parents
27. I hate having a blank mind
28. I hate that you have no choice
29. I hate that there is nothing I can do, I will always be this way until I die
30. I hate that my kind of personality is just thrown into the world just to make it different; not to make it better
31. I hate the feeling that I am worthless to my parents and to the world
32. I hate that no one gets it that somethings are freaking genetic, and you can’t change that crap.
33. I hate that my personality, even though I could be jumping out of airplanes, shooting paintball guns, and flying around in jetbacks, makes everything seem boring.
34. I hate that everyone has something to say after a movie and I don’t
35. I hate when I just absolutely don’t feel like talking and it’s more painful then nails in my skull just to utter one word.
36. I hate that I’ve lost so many friends because I can’t talk to them
37. I hate that I don’t know how to handle myself and end up just looking like a dork
38. I hate when people think i am mad but im not its just hard to smile because im afraid they will judge me.
39. I hate that I suck at being social
40. I hate that most everything you do requires socializing
41. I hate feeling so awkward being alone with one of my parents or siblings because I don’t know what to say.
42. I hate that I get scared to be alone with someone and am relieved when someone else comes back so they can entertain the other person
43. I hate that I get good grades but feel dumb anyways
44. I hate being a social outcast, loser, suck-at-life bum, who just fails at everything.
44. I hate going to college because it is hard to focus and pay attention and study because i am worried about everyone else judging me
45. I hate that i REALLY know no one is truly judging me BUt my mind does not understand that
46. I hate that the fact is inside I wanna ba a social butterfly but i cant because i am caged
47. I hate that it is a chore just going to the gas station to pay for gas or buy some milk
48. I hate that the medication i’m on is not doing a god damn thing
49. I hate when people that don’t understand just tell you to go be social “practice makes perfect” :) [NO]
50. I hate not knowing if i will ever fall in love and that i will be alone forever because of this
51. I hate not being able to eat in front of ANYONE not even my dad or own family
52. I hate having to be completly drunk or have to use a drug just to feel like i can be social
53. I hate that i wear a mask and pretend
54. I hate that i cannot be who i am
55. I hate having social anxiety disorder.
Alright I’m done. Your turn?